Hello darling!
I heard a sad story yesterday that made me want to revisit the subject of animals who suffer from various physical, mental and emotional ailments.
A friend of mine was telling me about a family he knows that had a beautiful Staffordshire bull terrier. This dog was the pet of the 20-something-year-old daughter and her husband. As a young couple, they then had two children and for some reason, they then decided they no longer wanted this dog so were planning to give him to a rescue shelter.
This alone for me is heart-breaking. That dog would have considered himself part of this family, so to be given away and abandoned like this would have broken his heart in the same way that a young child would be traumatised if its parents decided they no longer wanted the child and so took it off to an orphanage.
Anyway, the woman's mother took pity on the dog and decided to take him in. Her two younger teenage daughters still lived at home and so the dog would be welcomed into the family.
Unfortunately, this little Staffy was very anxious and unhappy and began to habitually chew on his own tail. He bit himself very badly and eventually it was decided that his tail would need to be amputated. This £1000 operation took place a couple of days ago and now this poor little dog has a stump where his tail was and is having to wear a cone around his neck until the scars heals.
I was in pieces when I heard all this. Rather than address the cause of the stress and anxiety, which I believe is clearly emotional from a sense of being unwanted, unloved and abandoned, the little dog had to undergo a painful and unnecessary operation. I do not think his tail needed to be removed. I believe his anxiety and stress needed to be addressed. And I suspect this is still the case. They have removed the tail but they have not looked at addressing the reasons that were causing the self-harm.
It is the same situation for humans that self harm. If a beautiful young teenage girl repeatedly cuts her arm with razor blades from a sense of deep unhappiness and unworthiness, do you amputate her arm? Of course not. You address the reasons why she is self-harming.
I do not know why many people cannot see that animals feel and suffer just as much as humans. Animals are sentient beings, just like humans. They have nervous systems and emotions, just like humans. They need to feel loved and cared for, just like humans. And when their basic emotional needs are not met, this shows up as depression, anxiety, fear, anger and self-harm, just like humans.
Please know that your pet, as well as any animal you interact with, has feelings. If your animal develops a physical condition or a behavioural issue such as tail biting or compulsive barking, its root cause is in the emotional and mental. Healing these conditions comes via more love, more understanding and more compassion. It does not come through punishment.
If you have an animal, please give them a big hug and cuddle from me. If your animal could benefit from a healing session with me, book a session here. They are worth it and they deserve it.
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Lots of love, Zoë xx

PS I am now offering guidance and healing sessions over Skype/Zoom/Facetime - get in touch if you'd like to book an appointment! Just click here.

PPS To add names to my weekly, free distant healing group, go to my Facebook page here www.facebook.com/zoehendersonhealer

Hello Darling!
This blog is inspired by a new client who, this week, asked me what's actually going on during a hands-on healing session with me. It was her first experience of this kind of alternative energy medicine and, like many people, she was bewildered, sceptical but also curious.
"I'm not someone who usually goes in for this kind of thing" she told me. She'd only made an appointment and turned up at my door on the recommendation of a friend. As well, she was starting to get desperate - as so many of the people are who find their way to me. It's very common for people with chronic health and medical issues to finally be willing to try energy healing simply because they've run out of other options. They've been suffering in pain or discomfort for many, many years and conventional 'pills, creams and surgical knives' medicine has nothing else to offer them other than ever-increasing doses of strong pharmaceuticals that might, but often don't, mask their symptoms, although not actually bringing about any kind of lasting healing. 
At this point, many people take a 'well, what have I got to lose' approach. 'I'll lay down and let this lady hover her hands over me, it'll probably do nothing but it can't do any harm...' they think.
I have no problem with this kind of scepticism. It's impossible not to be sceptical of energy healing in today's modern society where we have placed all the importance on our logical, analytic and rational left-brain to the detriment of our neglected creative, intuitive, connected right-brain. As a result, we have a world that believes 'if I can't see it or touch it, it's not real'. 
It always strikes me as a conflicting stance from people who readily accept that electromagnetic frequencies, wavelengths, radio waves and so on, fly unseen through the air and through space to connect our little mobile phone to someone's little mobile phone on the other side of the planet.
This requires a belief or a faith in unseen energies.
And unseen energies is exactly what I am working with when I open myself up to channel frequencies from higher realms and direct them to a person who will benefit from their healing properties.
I am basically a conduit of energy. This energy has an intelligence and a consciousness. It uses me as a kind of bridge for accessing the Earth plane. Anyone can do this if they wish to and intend to, although practise may be needed. Just like a tap that hasn't been turned on for decades, the 'water' might not flow very well initially.
Most of the time, these channeled healing energies, or frequencies, break down the blocks that are preventing the body-brain from healing itself. We get build ups of dense, negative energy in various parts of our body. This is the result of negative thinking, unprocessed trauma, stress, anxiety, and limiting beliefs. 
When these energy blocks stop our life force - aka chi, aka prana - from flowing freely through our body, then the parts of the body that are not getting any or all of the life force energy will eventually present as physical problems. In the same way that if blood is not reaching your big toe, it will eventually go black and fall off.
For example, if someone has a subconscious belief that they never have enough money and making ends meet is always a struggle, this belief can impact the flow of energy around our root chakra, which is about survival and support. If unaddressed, this can, over time, lead to an energy blockage in the lower back that eventually manifests as back ache in the physical body.
With hands-on healing, the dense energy stuck in the root chakra is broken down and dissolved so that once again the life force can flow freely through the meridians. It is important though to also clear any limiting beliefs that caused the negative energy to build up in the first place, otherwise the back pain may return down the track. This can sometimes be done with the energy healing and other times it may need a technique such as EFT Tapping Matrix Reimprinting. That's why I love combining a variety of healing techniques. As a combination, they can be extremely powerful and effective.
How did the first session with that new client go? She was puzzled and intrigued. She could feel the heat in my hands and enjoyed the complete relaxation so she has made a second appointment but still remains sceptical. Which is absolutely fine!
If you’d like to experience a healing session with me that combines EFT Matrix Reimprinting with intuitive guidance channelled from your angels, click the link and make an appointment. I can see you online or in person.
 
Lots of love, Zoë xx

PS I am now offering guidance and healing sessions over Skype/Zoom/Facetime - get in touch if you'd like to book an appointment! Just click here.

PPS To add names to my weekly, free distant healing group, go to my Facebook page here www.facebook.com/zoehendersonhealer

Hello Darling!
I am happy to tell you that I recently got my certification in EFT Matrix Reimprinting.
I’ve been a standard EFT practitioner for many years, Matrix Reimprinting is a way to enhance traditional EFT, which is also known as Tapping. I have been using EFT Tapping with my human and animal clients for many years, it’s a wonderful complement to hands-on and intuitive healing.
Going through this training with the founder of EFT Matrix Reimprinting, Karl Dawson (www.karldawson.org), has been a powerful reminder of how so much of our current life, our trials, tribulations and joys, are the result of beliefs laid down in our childhood.
I am reminded that, no matter which healing modality you’re drawn to experience, positive transformation almost always boils down to healing childhood trauma. This is the best way to profoundly transform your life. We need to go backwards in order to go forwards to a more desirable future. We need to dig down before we can grow higher.
And it all starts much earlier than you might think! As soon as our consciousness, or our soul, enters the fertilised egg in our mother’s womb, our development starts being impacted by our external environment – most notably by the emotions and thoughts of our mother. As well though by the energies and thoughts around us and directed at us as babies in the womb.
For example, we know if we are wanted and planned for; we know if our births are eagerly anticipated or if our parents are anxious at the prospect of having another mouth to feed. We know if our father wants a boy but we are a girl. We know if our mother secretly hopes we will be blonde and petite but we are in fact red-headed with a squat build. Even at this foetal stage, we can form beliefs about being a disappointment and being unwanted and, if unaddressed, these beliefs can shape our lives.
As unborn babies, we swim in a cocktail of our mother’s emotions and hormones. Her heartbeat is the soundtrack to our world. We feel her anxiety, her excitement, her sadness and so on. If she feels safe and loved, we feel safe and loved. Our brain’s development is shaped by its exposure to the chemicals of these emotions. We’re also exposed to the same toxins as she is so whatever gets into our mother’s bloodstream gets into ours. Swirling through the soft tissue that’s forming our brain, organs, bones and flesh.

BUILDING YOUR OPERATING SYSTEM
Then we’re born into the world and, for the next six or so years, we are both a sponge and a blank canvas, forming beliefs based on our experiences and observations. These beliefs, or programmes, form the operating system for our lives.
This operating system is permanently running quietly in the background. Its purpose is to keep us functioning in the world in which we live. Its purpose is to keep us alive and safe. In order to stay alive and safe, we need to know how to fit in with others, how to manage the expectations of others to have our needs met, how to operate within our tribe. We need to know how to belong, how to be loved, so that all our survival needs are met. We need to understand our boundaries. We need to understand consequences or ‘what happens if I do this?’
This operating system runs deep and has many levels. The higher levels are somewhat easier to upgrade but the deeper programming is more challenging. It’s worth remembering that every single belief and program that has been laid down in your subconscious operating system is there because part of you sees this as a benefit, it keeps you safe, it assists you in belonging, in having a purpose.
So if a male neighbour molests you at the age of four, this trauma and violation will form beliefs and programmes to keep you safe, beliefs such as ‘I can’t trust men’, ‘my parents can’t protect me’, ‘the world is dangerous’, ‘sex is dirty and violating’, ‘I don’t have a voice’, and so on.
These beliefs always ‘serve’ us in some way but sometimes they out-live their usefulness. For example, the woman who cannot understand why she lurches from failed relationship to failed relationship may be because she is running the ‘I can’t trust men’ programme.
This is where wonderful healing modalities like EFT Tapping and Matrix Reimprinting can help us shift our lives.
In brief, by tapping on these old memories we can delete the effects of the traumas from our energy field. Doing this means that the trauma no longer sends constant ripples out into our present life.

YOU ARE A FOREST
When we talk about childhood experiences forming our adult life, we often use the metaphor of a mighty oak tree that starts as a tiny seed encoded with a blueprint that unfolds with the help of sun and water. We know too that the best time to impact the shape of how the tree will grow is when it’s young and pliable.
This is a good analogy but I would like to offer you a different one. Instead of seeing yourself as a single tree, I like to think that each of us is like a whole forest of many trees, or a garden full of different blooms and plants.
Some trees in your forest may grow tall and strong but perhaps there are some that are overcrowding the others. It might be that your garden is beautiful and bursting with colour, a haven for bees and insects and wildlife. Maybe a few weeds pop up and shrubs need pruning back but you deal with it all quickly and the garden stays beautiful. You pull the weeds up by the roots before they get set in and spread.
Or perhaps your garden is overgrown with weeds that have choked the flowers and bushes. Maybe you didn’t bother tending your garden or watering it. The good news is that you can always begin transforming it back to something beautiful, it might just take a big effort initially but then it’s a matter of maintaining it with regular love and care.
So if you are to be a gardener for your soul and your life, what will you plant? And what weeds need pulling? How far down do the roots of these weeds reach into the soil of your subconscious? There’s no point just cutting them off at ground level, they will grow back and spread to other parts of your garden.
How can you make your garden as beautiful and healthy and thriving as it can be? Remember too, you have the power to uproot anything in your garden and you have the power to plant anything you want as well.
How does your garden grow?
If you’d like to experience a healing session with me that combines EFT Matrix Reimprinting with intuitive guidance channelled from your angels, click the link and make an appointment. I can see you online or in person.
 
Lots of love, Zoë xx

PS I am now offering guidance and healing sessions over Skype/Zoom/Facetime - get in touch if you'd like to book an appointment! Just click here.

PPS To add names to my weekly, free distant healing group, go to my Facebook page here www.facebook.com/zoehendersonhealer

Hello Darling!
I've touched on it before but for this blog, I want to talk more about universal signs and messages. This week, my guides and angels had some advice for me on this. Basically, if it could be a sign, it IS a sign, they tell me.
Here on earth, we’ve trained up our logical, rational left-brain hemispheres so well that we have left little to no room for the magical and mysterious. We’ve second-guessed our intuition so often that we can now barely hear its whispers. So while our intuition and our clairsentience give us whispers and nudges, our logical, sensible ego is booming in our heads at full volume, drowning out these whispers with thoughts like, ‘What? That’s crazy… it’s just a coincidence, it’s not really a spirit message, how ridiculous, it’s my imagination, that makes no sense…’ and so on.
​The trouble is that, every time we shut down our inner knowing with doubts, second guessing, and even ridicule, it’s essentially like bringing down a steel barrier between ourselves and Spirit.
The more often we bring down these steel barriers, the quicker they come down and the longer they stay down. Spirit cannot get through to us, we don’t notice their signs and nudges and hints and suggestions. We can only hear the voice of our ego, which is usually banging on and on about how we must be worried and be stressed and how we must struggle and how nothing comes easily, how we can’t afford to relax or let our guard down, etc.
Of course, Ego does not want us to relax and let our guards down because that’s when our minds open, that’s when the barriers lift and Spirit can reach us. When we listen to Spirit, we put our Ego out of a job and that’s the LAST thing our egos want.
The key is finding a balance. Finding balance between the left and right brain hemispheres, switching smoothly between them as easily as we inhale and exhale; shifting focus back and forth from the external physical world to the inner spiritual world. Acknowledging the role and presence we have in both realms and welcoming, allowing, Spirit to show itself more obviously in our physical reality.
This is when we dance with the Universe.
So, if it could be a sign, it IS a sign.
This is the message I want to pass on to you today. I’ve written about this before, see my blog here about Harnessing the Power of Angels.
The Universe is constantly asking you to dance and play, the only question is whether or not you will take up that invitation.
How to start? Observe your world in a playful way and, rather than assuming everything is NOT a sign, take the other position and start assuming everything IS a sign… and if it is, what then?
If you knew with 100 per cent certainty that it is absolutely and definitely a sign or message from Spirit, what does that mean to you? Would it mean you could confidently take a different decision? Could you more bravely take a step forward? Could you relax about something?
My darling, I encourage you to accept the invitation to the dance and allow the Universe to gently lead you on to the dance floor where you can let your hair down and have some fun!
 
Lots of love, Zoë xx
PS I am now offering guidance and healing sessions over Skype/Zoom/Facetime - get in touch if you'd like to book an appointment! Just click here.

PPS To add names to my weekly, free distant healing group, go to my Facebook page here www.facebook.com/zoehendersonhealer

​Now that it's a little (very little) warmer here in the UK, I want to remind you about the power of nature in this blog because, sadly, in our modern world we have forgotten just how potent and life-changing and healing it is to simply be in the natural world.
We are part of this universe and part of this planet. By just putting our bare feet on Mother Earth we 'plug in' to her energy. It rises up within us and rebalances our circadian rhythms - we are 'grounding' or 'earthing' when we do this.
I also believe this energy from Mother Earth does so much more - our body and our energy field is part of the energy of Mother Earth. When we reconnect with this energy, our bodies and minds are reset and healed and we release any stored up negative energy - static electricity, if you will - back into the earth. Mother Earth is endowed with electrons that we absorb through the soles of our feet. This is like taking antioxidants through your feet! It helps you sleep better and reduces the inflammation in the body that contributes to everything from arthritis to heart disease. The arrival of the rubber soled shoe however has meant that people are no longer grounding properly and this is negatively impacting our health - there is a wonderful documentary about this called 'The Science of Grounding' that I will attach below.
​I believe so profoundly in the power of getting into nature that I walk in the park every single morning - my angels come with me and we talk about whatever's going on in my life and my work.
​I find being outside, especially near water, also makes my meditations so much stronger and my visualisations more powerful. This is in part because the energy of nature is already 'clear'. Of course it's wonderful to meditate anytime, anywhere, but if you meditate in a room in your house, first you are surrounded by four walls and second, you don't know who's left what kind of energy in the room before you got there.
​My advice for you this month then is to take advantage of the warmer weather - if you live in the northern hemisphere - and place your hands, feet or bottom on the earth whenever you can, ideally every day for at least 15 minutes. If you can do this daily for a few days, even weeks, see if you notice any improvements in your sleeping or health, especially inflammation-related conditions.

Lots of love, Zoë xx
PS I am now offering guidance and healing sessions over Skype/Zoom/Facetime - get in touch if you'd like to book an appointment! Just click here.

PPS To add names to my weekly, free distant healing group, go to my Facebook page here www.facebook.com/zoehendersonhealer

Hello Darling!
​I can barely contain myself today. I am your typical mother who is bursting with pride for my amazing son, Charles. He's just completed the world's toughest footrace, the Marathon Des Sables.
What is it? If you ask me, it's a week of self-inflicted torture. But officially it's a 250km race over endless sand dunes in the Sahara Desert over six days. It's basically a marathon every day for a week. The runners have to carry all their own food and equipment on their back and water is rationed -- even though temperatures are in the 50s centigrade -- if the water ration is exceeded, the runner is penalised! And at night they sleep in tents made of goat hair. Due to these extreme conditions, their feet swell, crack and bleed under the pressure and the heat.
​I know what you're thinking. Why on earth would anyone do this?! Well, for Charles, the motivation was raising money for the London Air Ambulance Team, where he works. As a paramedic, Charles knows more than most about the vital and important work done by this organisation. And there is still time to sponsor them - go to https://www.justgiving.com/fundraising/charles-henderson3
But anyway, how did it go for Charles? Of about 1000 of the world's best athletes, he finished in the top 20 per cent. Thus my heart swelling with pride! Just to finish this race is a huge achievement -- many fall by the wayside due to the gruelling conditions.
​Anyway, like I said, I am bursting with pride and also relieved he's safely finished. I also know for sure that he had a team of angels helping him and the rest of the team with whom he completed this mission. It reminds me that our friends in Spirit can offer invaluable help and support at times like this but ultimately we still have work to do here on the earth plane. To use a bicycling analogy, the angels can lubricate the wheels but we still have to do the pedalling!
​Still though, the angels tell me that although there is a great deal they can do to smooth your path in life, guide you gently around the obstacles in your way, and ease your burdens, you still have to ask for their help. This bit is essential. This is the way the universe is run. It is a universal law.
So, my advice for you in this blog is to take 10 minutes of quiet time, alone. Turn your phone off, shut the door, etc... and sit down with a pen and paper. Write 'dear Angels' at the top of the page, then tell them anything you want to tell them about the challenges you're facing. Then ask them to take these challenges and find the best solutions, tell them you are giving your challenges to them to sort out. Ask them to guide you to take any action and decisions necessary on the earth plane but that you know that they have many more resources than you as well as a much broader perspective on solutions available. You now hand them the job of overcoming these challenges in the highest and best way.

Hello Darling!
A couple of days ago, I had a friend over for lunch and we got talking about angels, angel communications and signs. Despite a huge rise in awareness in the last 20 or so years, thanks to the work of wonderful people like Diana Cooper, Doreen Virtue and more recently Kyle Gray, there is still a great deal of confusion and disbelief surrounding angels.
Even amongst people who follow one of the world's main religions, Christianity, Islam and Judaism, in which angels feature prominently in all, many devotees still find it hard to say they believe in angels, despite also claiming that every word of the Bible or Koran is 'gospel truth' so to speak.
I understand it of course. The idea of invisible beings with wings who only want to help us does smack a little of Father Christmas and the tooth fairy. We 21st Century humans are so indoctrinated with the value of the five senses that anything that cannot (usually) be perceived with our own eyes or ears is difficult to comprehend. So when you get someone like me who comes along and says I can actually hear angels speaking to me, I'm often dismissed as 'harmless but doolally' or I'm condemned as a deliberate and malicious fraud, preying on the vulnerable.
I honestly don't mind... these days there is an army of us who believe in and work with angels so I am in good company! However, I'm digressing a bit because today I want to offer a few tips and hints for how you can better harness the power of angels in your life. There is, you see, a huge army of unemployed angels just waiting for us to give them something to do by asking for their help. This is because we are governed by the law of free will -- which means we have to ask and it is given. Angels and other light beings will not just decide what we need for us and take action without our say so.
So, here are my top tips:
1. Assume that there are angels everywhere you go, hovering about you and saying 'What do you need? Come on, give me a job, how can I help...' then talk to them  
3. There are billions, trillions, bazillions of angels out there... so feel free to call on some of the unknown ones (and take the pressure off the popular ones like Archangel Michael - not that He can't handle it), so call upon the angels of cats, the angels of cars, the angels of coffee shops, the angels of curtains, the angels of plants, the angels of spring, the angels of dreams... 
3. Generally speaking, messages from angels fall into several main categories – they provide answers to your prayers/requests; they confirm that they’ve heard your prayers and are on the job; they offer reassurance that you’re on the right path and all is well; they offer comfort by just letting you know that they’re there; they guide you towards your life mission, and they warn you about situations that you might want to avoid.
4. Angels use synchronicity and coincidences to give you signals about your life path and their presence. When you notice these signs, thank them as it will encourage them to do it more often.
5. The thing is, often people realise they’re getting some kind of angel message but they don’t what the message is, they can’t understand what the angels are trying to tell them. Perhaps they’re pulling the same oracle card over and over again, or perhaps they’re hearing the same name from a load of different sources, or perhaps they’re seeing the same recurring number everywhere, a client of mine came to me and said he’d been seeing the number 222 everywhere, it was the time his bus left, it was the time on the clock when he woke in the night, it was the amount of change he received at the shops… he knew this was an angelic message but he didn’t know what the message was. How can you interpret angelic signs? Ask yourself, 'have I prayed for anything? Is this confirmation that they're on the job? Have I been struggling lately? Is this reassurance that all is working out? Have I been holding back on making a decision? Is this a nudge to taking that step forward?'
If you're still not sure, try automatic writing. Sit down with a pen and paper, make sure you'll not be disturbed for and then set a timer for 15 minutes.  
Take a couple of moments to close your eyes, take three deep breaths and say, ‘I call on my angels to communicate with me now’ pick up the pen and write, Hi angels, I know you’ve been giving me signs, what are you trying to tell me?
Then write the first thing that comes to your mind, even if it’s just one word. Continue this back and forth Q&A without lifting your pen from the paper until the timer goes off. Don't stop writing, don't edit yourself or correct grammar, just allow the flow.
If you do give this a go, I'd love to hear how it went! Please do put a comment below or perhaps a message on my Facebook page at www.facebook.com/zoehendersonhealer

Lots of love, Zoë xx

PS I am now offering angel guidance and healing sessions over Skype/Zoom/Facetime - get in touch if you'd like to book an appointment! Just click here.
 

Hello Darling,
This week finds me in a period of mourning. After a period of illness, a very close friend of mine has passed into Spirit recently and I am deeply saddened by his loss from my Earthly, physical life. 
As a spiritual healer and psychic, people often mistakenly assume that I am not so effected by the passing over of loved ones as I know that they are simply going back 'home' and at some point I will join them back there, as will we all.
However, while knowing this does offer some comfort, it does not compensate for the deep sense of grief at having lost the person from this physical life.
Yes, we are all spiritual beings - first, foremost and always. But while we are incarnated here on Earth, we are also physical beings and our bodies of skin and bone have their own consciousness and intelligence. The body craves for the touch and smell of our loved one, the body yearns to see that person, hear their voice and their laugh.
This chapter of their existence, though, is finished.
Yes, they simply move to another form of existence and we may even continue to have a relationship with that person while we are here and they are there but it's a different type of relationship. This new relationship state is to what we must adjust.
There is no avoiding the raw pain of grief that comes with the passing of a loved one. And no good is done by denying yourself the process of fully grieving. Emotions must be processed, felt and released, in order to transform into something lighter and more positive. This is simply part of the beautiful cycle in which we're participating. There is also an honouring of the person in the grieving process. I would advise though, that you also honour them by calling to mind the times they were at their best, their happiest, their most generous, their kindest. Remembering their earthy life this way is the greatest show of honour and respect you can give them. And please let me assure you, they are very aware of your thoughts and actions with regards to their memory. So, raise a glass to their name, light a candle to their memory, get a tattoo, make a donation to their favourite charity... they see it all.
My final thought is to let you know that death can in fact be the ultimate healing. Sometimes, when I am asked to work at the bedside of someone who is terminally ill, my role is not to try and heal them of their condition. My role is in fact to help them transition to Spirit as smoothly as lovingly as possible, without fear.

Lots of love, Zoë xx
PS I am now offering guidance and healing sessions over Skype/Zoom/Facetime - get in touch if you'd like to book an appointment! Just click here.
 

Hello Darling!
Or should I say, 'kia ora' because as I type this, I'm on the other side of the world from my UK home in Englefield Green, visiting my twin sister Zandra in New Zealand. Yes, our parents named us Zoë and Zandra, a nice ring for identical twins. 
My apologies if you're reading this while in Europe because I'm about to rave a little about the New Zealand summer. This burst of heat after months of winter in England feels wonderful. My depleted Vitamin D levels are getting a much needed top up and I understand why flowers are compelled to turn their heads towards the sun. Its healing and rejuvenating rays are literally life giving.
As well, I am always happy to be with my sister, the person with whom I've shared three score and ten or so years walking this planet. When we were born, our parents felt like we were a miracle.
I described in my book how our Mummy, through the earlier years of her marriage, suffered from four miscarriages. She just couldn’t hold her babies. About a year before our arrival and at the age of 40, in despair and with a last hope, she went to church and lit a candle. She silently wept as she sat in the pew and prayed to God and the angels for a child. A year later she had us. When we were told this later in our lives, she said we were the result of a miracle!
Zandra and I were always known as the Hall twins as no one could ever tell the difference to be able to identify ‘ourselves’. We were inseparable as children and never got tired of each other’s company. She, though, was the more studious one who did well in exams whilst I was the daydreamer, who did not.
Identical twins were rare where we lived in the 1940s so we were stared at a lot. Mummy loved it and all through the years until we left home, and for some time after, the local press would follow our lives with updates in the newspapers. Zandra and I hated always being pushed in front of the cameras. Our lives were all in print with photos, ‘the Hall twins’, with write-ups on the latest events of our lives.
The strong bond between us has remained with us all the way through our lives but there is a downside to this. I literally feel my sister's pain. Like the time she had to have an emergency peritonitis operation - I was awake all night in agony.
"At least you had anaesthetic for it!" I told her later.
The weirdest thing though, which still happens to this day, is that when we are together for any length of time and then part our ways, we swap characters on departure. We say our goodbyes, in tears more often than not, and then we are 'in' each other.
Although we look alike, our characters are quite different. Many a time once we are settled back to our own places, we ring each other and say, “Please will you get out of my body?” It is a strange feeling, I speak the way she speaks anyway, and we have the same mannerisms. However, we swap actions, she acts like me and vice versa.  This can last for a couple of days or even up to a week, and we always get ourselves back at the same time. So if I don't quite seem myself when I meet you back in England when I'm first home from New Zealand, that may be why. I'm not myself; I'm part Zandra!
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 Lots of love, Zoë xx
PS I am now offering guidance and healing sessions over Skype/Zoom/Facetime - get in touch if you'd like to book an appointment! Just click here.